I’ve always been a worrier. I’ve gotten better at being more flexible and ‘with the flow’ about smaller things, but the bigger things still get to me. Like the future.
I know I’m not the only one. And definitely not the only millennial worrying over this.
This post idea actually came out of dating anxiety. Last night, on a whim, I re-downloaded the app Coffee Meets Bagel. Which now that I think about it was probable mistake number one. I went through the profile process and scrolled a few profiles. Then I went to sleep.
Actually I tried to sleep. I had a fitful sleep over my anxiety over now kind-of being in the ‘dating world’ in addition to suddenly being anxious over what the hell am I doing in the next few years?? Still living at home? God, I hope not.
So now I’m continuously thinking over what cities I might like to move to, what kind of jobs and industries I’ll look into, etc etc.
Why the hell do I do this to myself?!
I see myself in a confusing position. I currently live at home saying money (which I’m totally fine with at the moment) in Southern California. I have a job that I still love. BUT, I don’t want to stay in California. If only I could take my job with me when I go. If only!
However, no matter which city I want to move to, it all depends on job availability. Right now, I’m kind of stuck between Portland, Or and Boulder/Denver, CO. Colorado has better prospects, but not all are in the industry that I want.
While Portland would be tougher in terms of jobs, I think it’s cheaper to live. And, at least half of my friends live there. The city is familiar to me too. But I do have an aunt and a cousin in Boulder. Ultimately, the network is stronger in Portland, but jobs are stronger in Colorado.
It’s hard for me to really figure out what it is I think is more important for me, because like many people I want to live in a city where I have a good job, good environment, friends, and plenty to do. ultimately, I have to think about whether I want to constrict myself to one industry or open it up to pretty much anything.
So, those of you in similar situations, tell me what you’re doing to help alleviate the anxiety or if you’ve already gone through it, tell me the different things you learned!